friends~

I want you to ask yourself one question before you continue reading this post,

how far would you go for your friend? keep that answer in your head.

now ask yourself how far would your friend go for you?

now its hard to make up your mind isn't it?

i have lately feel i did something wrong, but i dont know what.

but losing a very close friend not fun, it changes alot of things.

so forgive forget and love you buddies, because u might actually regret losing a friend.

well friends do mean a lot to me i have met some new friends in this past few months,

some just came and go, and some are one of my best buddies.

example: calvinn, Ian, Hypo, Kim, and the rest of my bros

waiky, camilyn, Amanda, well and my other sis.

you guys have been a big part of my life i hope u guys will always be.

And now a song to show u guys about friendship well a video

Tearful Story

Hi, Mommy

...I'm your baby. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few
weeks old. You're going to find out about me soon, though, I promise.
Let me tell you some things about me. My name is John, and I've got
beautiful brown eyes and black hair. Well, I don't have it yet, but I
will when I'm born. I'm going to be your only child, and you'll call me
your one and only. I'm going to grow up without a daddy mostly, but we
have each other. We'll help each other, and love each other. I want to
be a doctor when I grow up.



You found out about me today, Mommy! You were so excited, you couldn't
wait to tell everyone. All you could do all day was smile, and life was
perfect. You have a beautiful smile, Mommy. It will be the first face I
will see in my life, and it will be the best thing I see in my life. I
know it already.



Today was the day you told Daddy. You were so excited to tell him about
me! ...He wasn't happy, Mommy. He kind of got angry. I don't think that
you noticed, but he did. He started to talk about something called
wedlock, and money, and bills, and stuff I don't think I understand
yet. You were still happy, though, so it was okay. Then he did
something scary, Mommy. He hit you. I could feel you fall backward, and
your hands flying up to protect me. I was okay... but I was very sad
for you. You were crying then, Mommy. That's a sound I don't like. It
doesn't make me feel good. It made me cry, too. He said sorry after,
and he hugged you again. You forgave him, Mommy, but I'm not sure if I
do. It wasn't right. You say he loves you... why would he hurt you? I
don't like it, Mommy.



Finally, you can see me! Your stomach is a little bit bigger, and
you're so proud of me! You went out with your mommy to buy new clothes,
and you were so so so happy. You sing to me, too. You have the most
beautiful voice in the whole wide world. When you sing is when I'm
happiest. And you talk to me, and I feel safe. So safe. You just wait
and see, Mommy. When I am born I will be perfect just for you. I will
make you proud, and I will love you with all of my heart.



I can move my hands and feet now, Mommy. I do it because you put your
hands on your belly to feel me, and I giggle. You giggle, too. I love
you, Mommy.



Daddy came to see you today, Mommy. I got really scared. He was acting
funny and he wasn't talking right. He said he didn't want you. I don't
know why, but that's what he said. And he hit you again. I got angry,
Mommy. When I grow up I promise I won't let you get hurt! I promise to
protect you. Daddy is bad. I don't care if you think that he is a good
person, I think he's bad. But he hit you, and he said he didn't want
us. He doesn't like me. Why doesn't he like me, Mommy?



You didn't talk to me tonight, Mommy. Is everything okay?



It's been three days since you saw Daddy. You haven't talked to me or
touched me or anything since that. Don't you still love me, Mommy? I
still love you. I think you feel sad. The only time I feel you is when
you sleep. You sleep funny, kind of curled up on your side. And you hug
me with your arms, and I feel safe and warm again. Why don't you do
that when you're awake, any more?



I'm 21 weeks old today, Mommy. Aren't you proud of me? We're going
somewhere today, and it's somewhere new. I'm excited. It looks like a
hospital, too. I want to be a doctor when I grow up, Mommy. Did I tell
you that? I hope you're as excited as I am. I can't wait.



...Mommy, I'm getting scared. Your heart is still beating, but I don't
know what you are thinking. The doctor is talking to you. I think
something's going to happen soon. I'm really, really, really scared,
Mommy. Please tell me you love me. Then I will feel safe again. I love
you!



Mommy, what are they doing to me!? It hurts! Please make them stop! It
feels bad! Please, Mommy, please please help me! Make them stop!



Don't worry Mommy, I'm safe. I'm in heaven with the angels now. They
told me what you did, and they said it's called an abortion.



Why, Mommy? Why did you do it? Don't you love me any more? Why did you
get rid of me? I'm really, really, really sorry if I did something
wrong, Mommy. I love you, Mommy! I love you with all of my heart. Why
don't you love me? What did I do to deserve what they did to me? I want
to live, Mommy! Please! It really, really hurts to see you not care
about me, and not talk to me. Didn't I love you enough? Please say
you'll keep me, Mommy! I want to live smile and watch the clouds and
see your face and grow up and be a doctor. I don't want to be here, I
want you to love me again! I'm really really really sorry if I did
something wrong. I love you!





I love you, Mommy.



Every abortion is just…



One more heart that was stopped.

Two more eyes that will never see.

Two more hands that will never touch.

Two more legs that will never run.

One more mouth that will never speak.

Ugly Or just plain Pretty

2NE1's new song, every one is pretty accept yourself because we all have accepted each othe for who we arer

[CL] I’m trying to smile brightly but

I don’t like itI’m not pretty, I’m not beautifulOh oh oh oh x 2

[BOM] I’m trying to sing but

No one is listeningI’m not pretty, I’m not beautifulOh oh oh oh x 2

[DARA] Why am I this ugly

What must I do for me to be able to smile brightly like you?

[MINJI] I’m getting angry again, why can’t I ever be perfect

I simply put the blame on my ugly appearance in this broken mirror

[BOM] Don’t look at me, I hate this feeling right now

I want to hide away somewhere, I want to escapeThis world is full of lies

[CL] I think I’m ugly

And nobody wants to love meJust like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prettyDon’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly

And nobody wants to love meJust like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prettyDon’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

[MINJI] Don’t tell me that you can understand me so easily

My ugly and crooked heart may even come to resent you

[BOM] Don’t force me to talk, I’m not right for you

The cold facade inside that patronizing gaze suffocates me

[MINJI] Don’t come closer, I don’t even want your concern

I want to leave away to somewhere, I want to shout outThis world is full of lies

[CL] I think I’m ugly

And nobody wants to love meJust like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prettyDon’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly

And nobody wants to love meJust like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prettyDon’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

[DARA] All alone

I’m all alone x 2

There is no such thing as warmth

There is no one by my side

All alone

I’m all alone x 2I’m always alone

There’s no such thing as warmth

Next to my side, there’s not even anyone to embrace me

[CL] I think I’m ugly

And nobody wants to love meJust like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be pretyDon’t lie to my face tellin’ me I’m pretty

I think I’m ugly

And nobody wants to love meJust like her I wanna be pretty I wanna be prettyDon’t lie to my face cuz I know I’m ugly

Dance~

Every one dances for a reason, fame, money, friends, skills, ETC. . .

Bt the thing is why did we every start dancing?

We came together as a group to dance have fun share our knowledge,

But as the time goes we go as well, its hard to believe there was once in our lives

We smiled and laughed at our jokes, bt now unable to even look each other in the eye and say

That one simple "HI!".

Hopefully this new start could be a better one,

Dancing could actually be all i have left if i don't have my friends.

this friday and saturday, please show my how you guys can be my friends again.

I really want what we have to be better then before.

LAKESIDE HERE I COME!!!

change

In life decisions have to be made,

These days my life has been going up and down up and down i hate it!

Girls going in and out, arguements, studies, sometimes i just want it all to just stop,

just long enough for me to catch my breath,

friends have always been by my side i just hope when the time really comes,

They will still be there with open arms,

Being a kid is not easy, so many things we have to do,

Why parents some times just don't know what we're are going through

haven't they gone through this before? why?

Why do they still screw us for all the things that they also have done.

What's worse is that is i miss cheer, but I'm just damn afraid of going back and facing them

How can a friend I've known for 13 years just turn on me!

How can he be my friend! no he is not i don't want him to ever come in again

I guess blogging has really helped me a lot,

Releasing stress and having break through's in life,

Watching "I not stupid 2" a very heart warming movie,

Shows me how much my life is turning in to crap like his,

Just how that things would make a turn to happiness,

It's because of times like this we have to look out for our selves,

And see who can really help us in our time of need,

I don't give a dam nw i just wanna drown my self in emotional movies.

and FUCK YOU WEARN!!o0o

Unicorn Rainbow stampede~

Greetings!! we have finally lived through judgement day!!

Spent my whole 2 days with the girl i guess that opened up my eyes,

Hahha meeting her from the first day with her first kiss on my cheek,

It turned me Red outside and Pink inside,

I never thought moving on would be that fast,

Even the old pain still glimmers by the side of my eyes,

I can say that i'm happy with where i'm,

I dont know will she finally be the final girl in my life,

But she saw something that others could not,

Like Woah!!! progress is kinda fast.

meeting her and moving that fast should not be a mistake

But probably Destiny in life and a story in the making,

Till the end of time, maybe i would be looking into her eyes with her by my side.

These few days might be a dragging pain for me,

through all the stress and friendship problems,

I would love to thank my bro's the people who stand by my side when i was down.

Shane, Leon, Calvinn, u guys just rock my world man!

Movie were great, with them talking out playing a game of Bball

Well from these few days i see how much can people change,

and who would stay loyal till the end.

Well i guess i'll be studying at Taylor's soon,

I'm gonna be so damn happy there, beside the girl i love, closer to all my friends.

What could probably go wrong,

(p.s : Please dont jynx this)

im off to Lakeside now, seeing my girl.

ice on fire

I still remember the first time i danced.

The first time i jumped, and felt like i was flying.

The last time i flew, and the last time i fell.

But yet i still feel like i can fall again any time.

When i first laid eyes on her there was nothing.

After a few months there was ups and downs, ending up i fell down.

Hurt and crushed, but yet i climbed back up at the top of my game.

Now another came, it really was at first sight.

As one of the most corney and common line,

"when i saw you, i want to know you,

when i known you, i want to hold you,

when i held you, i want to hug you,

when i huged you, i want to kiss you,"

And so on.

From holding and rubbing your hands, to running my fingers through your hair.

Now kissing you by the cheek, and forehead.

When i looked you in the eyes i guess i connected.

We moved on from there but now, waiting for you final answer.

But why do i always have the pain for you walking around plucking roses.

With its torns your soul pierces my heart.

Now in a different college i stand waiting for time to pass.

Not knowing is his course right for me.

through the gate way of life, where everyone passes through.

I feel afraid wondering in to this new unknown.

I feel strong yet afraid to face it all alone can anyone help me??

God pls call me on the phone and tell me!! what is my move?

Pro17:22 "A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones." There is always humor in everyday life. Be happy! :)